Theory of the Parallel Realities

I have always been fascinated by the theory of parallel realities. Our world would only be one of a myriad of others, all at the same time similar and different. Constants and variables. (Believe it or not, but it's Bioshock Infinite who started my fascination for this theory).
We exist in each reality, but we are different in each of them. I am only one Mathias Poupinais among thousands, just like all of you. For example:
- In this reality I am as I am. In another I can be a woman. In another I am a celebrity. In another, a criminal. In another I am very old. In another I live at a different time (Middle Ages, prehistory, the 1900s, or even in a future that we do not know yet, etc ...). In another I may already be dead, and in another not yet born. The possibilities are limitless.
I think, and this is my opinion, that even if these realities are real or not, our brain is generally conditioned not to be aware of their existence and to protect us from the paradox that it could create in our mind.
This brings me back to another interesting theory: time simply would not exist and all the events (past, present, future ...) would take place exactly at the same time, and the same, without us being aware of it, because again once, our brain would not support the paradox.
I've talked about parallel realities, but there's another theory that joins it: if we die in a reality, among their infinite number, there's bound to be another where we're still alive. So we never die totally. This would be the true form of what is called immortality. 
After all why not? We do not have proof that it exists, but do we have proof that it does not exist?
The universe in which we live is very complex, and perhaps even more than we think.

Mathias, the Killmaster

Fire and Blood \m/ 

Warning for the Internet Trolls!

Internet trolls, 
This is a message from the Killmaster :To all of you, who delight yourselves from pain of the others and making judgements or shitty jokes about suicide, let me tell you this: you're not humans anymore, just heartless bastards, and deserving to burn in the flames of my hell!

Trolls, you can comment, but I'll not waste my time to answer you. But I tell you this: I'm not afraid of you, I'm the Killmaster, and this is my world.

The Versatile Blogger Award

I did not expect one day to be nominated for an award about blog, I did not even know that an award existed for it. It's fun and interesting as a concept. If it can allow bloggers looking for themselves to have some publicity and find the audience they are looking for, it's a good idea. After exceeding 20,000 views, the Killmaster must be worthy and above all, being himself.

In the first place, I thank my good Canadian friend Emily Hill, the Sci-Fi Queen, since we met, we have supported each other. His comments have more than once restored my morale and the desire not to let go. With this mutual support, we have several times stand against internet trolls that were looking to put crap. A fight that I led alone since forever, but now, I am no longer alone. Emily and I have been friends since 2013, we have never met for real, and yet, trust is there, as the friendship. Who knows? Maybe one day we will meet. The Killmaster thanks you again Emily \m/ Keep Rockin' \m/

To go in the universe of Emily, let's go Right Here

If you're a nerd, and proud to be, don't hesitate, Go!

For the rules I have to respect, I have to tell 7 things about myself. Alright, the Killmaster will deliver his life.

1. From 2008 to 2013, I've been a Wrestling Fan, especially of the WWE. My favorite wrestlers were superstars like Undertaker, Edge, Cm Punk, Umaga, Beth Phoenix.... But now my Wrestling period is finish, cause the good period of the WWE ended, for me, and the new is not at my taste. Too bad.

2. In high school, I fell into a nervous breakdown and almost committed suicide one night.

3. The band who made me become a Metalhead is Motörhead

4. I can not stand injustice, racism and intolerance. I'm not a violent person, but these three things have the gift of making me really crazy.

5. My first trip abroad was in London.

6. From 2012 to 2013, I trained myself to become a professional wrestler, in the French Federation, the WS (Wrestling Stars), but I abandonned this project because of my asthma I could not keep up the rhythm and I discovered that I was not made for that.

7. When I was eight months old, I could have been dead. One day in the street, my parents and I were almost hit by a car, whose driver had fallen asleep at the wheel. My father had some slight fractures, my mother was not hurt, and luckily for me, the stroller where I was has been solid enough to take the shock, to be just pushed to the side, and saved my life. This incident even appeared in the local newspaper. 

Ok, now I have to nominate 15 other bloggers, but I don't know a lot, so, I will nominate those I know, even if they are already nominated, well, it will make one more vote for them, I'm glad to give.

The Redheaded Nerd

Sci-fi, Fantasy, Rock music. This is the universe of my friend Emily Hill. Let's see the universe of the Sci-fi queen. \m/ 

Go Check!

Blog of a Pro Rocker

A blog from another of my good Canadian friend, Brayden Hamer, and his Rock N Roll skill \m/ 

Go Check!

Maddy's Blabbering

Another blog, from my German friend, Madlen Reuter, about his Metal trip through the festivals and the interviews she gave.

Go Check!

Thank you again to all those who support and believe in me. The spirit of the Killmaster is protecting you. Now, have a good night, and never forget: All you know is who you are, and what you want to be! \m/

Mathias, the Killmaster

Fire and Blood 

My Disney theory - Elsa is she an adopted child?

As everyone knows, the Frozen film was a worldwide success and became one of Disney movies the most profitable in the history. I myself enjoyed the film as a whole, basic but coherent story, but there's a detail I am certainly not the only one to noticed: during the movie, the origin of the powers of Elsa is not explained. This theory is very dark and dramatic, but rest assured, I'm not trying to break the myth of the film and the childhood of kids, this is just my own theory.

Well, at first, the king said to the trolls that this power has emerged from the birth of Elsa, ok, why not, it's possible, but in this case: why Elsa is she the only one with this power, and not the other family members?
It made me think, and a theory came in my mind, but if it is well founded, it would be such a drama: For me, about my theory, Elsa is not the real daughter of the King and Queen of Arendelle, but she would be a girl adopted by them when she was a baby. How would this be possible?
If the scenario is possible, as in the kingdom of Arendelle, magic and fantasy creatures like trolls exist, it may be that the real Elsa's parents are surely being a sort of witches or wizards with that kind of power too, or a race of humans able to control elements like ice, fire, wind, etc.... and few months after the birth of their daughter, the parents were forced to abandon or entrust her, to protect her from something who was chasing them. In front of the danger, Elsa's parents, for the safety of their child and after demanded advice to the trolls, reportedly met the king and queen of Arendelle, knowing them trustworthy, and for the safety of Elsa, made promised to the king and queen to not disclose anything to Elsa about the truth, and to raise her as their own daughter. The parents explained the problem, revealing the powers of their child, and the potential danger that threaten them.
Seeing the distress of the parents, the royal couple would have accepted, and after that, the real parents of Elsa would have disappeared without traces. Elsa would have grown up in the castle, and her new parents would have found a good excuse to justify the fact that she has a power, without ever revealing the truth, either to Elsa or to their other daughterwho was born few times after, Anna. And at the death of the king and queen of Arendelle, the only two people knowing the truth, Elsa, although being the adopted daughter but the eldest of the two sisters, would have become the new queen without knowing the truth about her true origins. If this theory proves to be consistent for you, and if the scenario of a sequel could going in this direction, it would mean that Elsa would discover the truth about her past and would, with the help of Anna, Kristoff and Olaf, go in search of her real parents, in the hope they are still alive somewhere. Or to be more dramatic, Elsa could discover the ruins and other traces of the past about her people,an ancient race of humans able to use magic, and whose her parents were the last members still alive, making of Elsa the last of her people. This scenario could explain the origins of the powers of Elsa, and she could also discover the mysterious threat that forced them to abandon her when she was a baby. And what could be this mysterious threat that chased the real parents of Elsa? Well, like ice being an element could be manipulated, other forms of magic manipulating other elements may exist, and it could be a very dangerous and dark threat, as a powerful and mischievous mage, controlling the fire for example and enemy of the ice mages, that could be the next enemy of Elsa and a new threat for Arendelle. And how Anna would react in discovering that Elsa is not her real sister, and vice-versa?  Knowing Disney, I don't think they will dare to do such a scenario like this, because for them, it might be too dramatic and dark for little children, but I admit a scenario like this would be great.
And it would also be an explanation for the fact that Elsa grew up with more and more trouble controlling her power, cause she has not grown with her mages parents, so she was not prepared for control it.
Anyway, this is only a theory, my theory that I like. So what do you think? Elsa: adopted child, or not?



Mathias, the Killmaster
Fire and Blood \m/

Wun Wun - Last of the giants (Tribute)

Tonight, after watching episode 9 of season 6 of Game of Thrones, I write this article to pay tribute to one of my favorite characters in the whole series: Wun Wun the giant.
Wun Wun had appeared in season 5, where he showed his bravery and strength in fighting the zombies of the army of the dead. Therefore, the giant became a friend of Jon Snow, and there was a mutual respect between them.
Later, at the beginning of season 6, Wun Wun helped defend Jon's corpse, destroying the doors of Castleblack, and killing a guard by hitting him violently against a wall. Although he was not a human, Wun Wun had chosen to fight for them, for the good cause.
But it's in this episode 9 of season 6 that Wun Wun, after a terrible bloody battle, where the giant fought with all his strength, he sacrificed his life to allow the forces of Jon and Sansa to enter in the city. The body riddled with arrows, Wun Wun continued to move forward until the end. He gave his life for a people that was not his own, but he chose to do so. His death tore my heart in two, to see him suffer from his injuries ached me and when he breathed his last before falling, tears flowed from my cheeks. He was a really nice character, and my only regret is he was not more exploited and shown on the screen. He deserved it. Another regret is that Wun Wun will never meet Daenerys, I really wished she see a giant.
Wun Wun, the giant who gave his life to free Winterfell and the north from the grip of the Boltons.
Wun Wun. Last of the giants. More than a true warrior. A true hero. Your sacrifice will never be forgotten.

May you rest in peace, giant warrior and hero of the north \m/ :'(

Mathias, the Killmaster

A stupid cunt and his stupid stereotypes about France

I am French, and proud of my origins Normandy and Brittany, and if there's one thing I can not tolerate is that we speak ill of my country, and I think the majority are in the same situation as me.
I just watched a video of classification, a "Top", described by an American or an English, and is talking about "10 things you didn't know about France," and after seeing this video, I was really red with anger. Let me explain.
The guy who is talking about France, said for example that Paris is a disgusting city, and nobody can take a step without walking on a dog poop. Again, the stereotype of the dirty French person who never cleans anything. All those who believe this, go fuck yourself. French are not dirty pigs!
Another annoying point is that he described the French as almost insensitive people, as heartless monsters. He dares to say for the French, it is normal to deceive his girlfriend or boyfriend, and that infidelity is normal for French. Asshole! You know nothing of us!
Another point about labor strikes. In the video, he dares to say that for the French, strikes are a way of life. You see this middle finger? It's for you, bastard!
And he described the French as horse meat eaters and as we like taking pleasure in killing ponies to put them in burgers? WTF? And he says that Marseille, a city in southern France, is the most dangerous city in all Europe. You know, I think there are much more dangerous cities across the continent. The thugs of Marseille are chihuahuas compared to some gangs in other cities of Europe.
So to sum up, this guy described the French as dirty, heartless and lazy people.
Am I talking about your country as you did with mine? NO! So, shut up stupid man, you don't know France.

I put the video of this moron to show you what I am talking about.

Mathias, the Killmaster
Fire and Blood \m/

Auto-tune = Shit

I am writing this article to express my thoughts on something I don't understand and also to bear. Some may be désacord and others may like that kind of singing, but not me, and I don't give a fucking care about the judgments, this is my opinion and I express it.

The auto-tune, for those who don't know, are the voices that are processed by a machine, to distort the voice in some way. To be honest, for me the only ones that use it are singers who can not sing. I can not even describe the auto-tune as a singing style. And I do not understand how so many people, especially young people, can listen and love it. I listen to a lot of blues and rock music from the 60s and 70s, and many young people have been surprised to my musical tastes, like if I was an alien. For me, it is rather them who are strange with what they listen to. And yet I am part of this generation, but I don't follow the line. I follow my own way, I found my own way. As I like to say: "All I know is who I am and what I want to be."

For the anecdote, the other day, I went to eat a kebab, and the only music that was heard inside was rap with auto-tune singers. I wonder how I get to eat and to endure this shit in the same time. I thought my ears would bleed after a while so it was unbearable. But thankfully after I went to a bar, or there was true music: Rock music motherfucker! \m/
That's, for me, the auto-tune is not a sing, it's just a machine that distorts the voice just because a singer has not a good voice and he distorts it to make it better, but it's quite the opposite.

That's my opinion

Mathias, the Killmaster

Fire and Blood \m/ 

In constant War....Against Intolerance and Ignorance.

This is a message I have to launch:
I never concerned myself about external affairs in the world, for my part, I have my own personal war, for many years against these things called Ignorance and intolerance. Call me crazy, psychopath if you want, I don't fucking care, it does not distract me from my goal. I consider all intolerant and ignorant people as my enemies. I decided to start this fight the day I leave my high school because of a nervous breakdown that almost killed me, caused by assholes and son of a bitch who have rejected and annoyed me a lot because I'm different.
Yeah, I'm fascinated by things like darkness, death, paranormal and horror, voodoo, weapons (especially blades).....I like, and not ashamed to show it.
In the world we live in, I know my war will never end, but I will never surrender, because my mind will remain as solid and firmly involved in my way of life and my passions, I would not lost.
I was treated as a satanist, monster, psycho .... I was treated of crazy because I am told that this "fight" I lead is useless, but it's wrong. It must still have it of humanity in some of us.
My darkness are coming for you, intolerant and ignorant people. I may never succeed to break you, but you will never succeed on me.


Mathias, the Lordi Rider
Fire and Blood \m/

Facebook is not a competition

Another point I already knew before, but I decided to finally talk about here is this mania that people on Facebook, asking as many people as friends, in order to have a maximum and feel surrounded.
For the person who has more than 1,000 friends on Facebook, and if most are strangers to him, I want to say: Ok, but what's ahead for you? It does not make you an important or famous person. And also, it's useless. Facebook is not a fucking place of competition, understood?
For my part, I have less than 250 friends on Facebook, and it suits me perfectly because I know I can count on them.
If your goal is to have a maximum of friends and does not know more than half or never talk to them, or just to get a maximum of "likes", it's useless.
The number is just a number, nothing more and it does not make you superior.


Mathias, the Lordi Rider
Fire and Blood \m/

Metal vs Politicals: an eternal conflict

Metal music against politics. A conflict we know all and drags yet, unfortunately.
Most policies say that Metal music is shocking, violent and incites to hatred. Hellfest, the biggest Metal festival in France and one of the biggest in the world, is falsely accused of being a place of satanic gathering.
They are wrong completely. This is not because we have taken the devil as our emblem and that our sign are the horns of the devil, that does not mean we are Satanists. We do it because it is our way to identify ourselves and to distinguish us from all other. Metal is not just music, it's a lifestyle. For example, I myself am a metalhead, I dresses myself with metalheads clothes, I listen to my favorite Metal bands in my room and I go to concerts when I can, I'm headbanging, I make the sign of the horns of the devil and I like to say that the darkness is my light and that the number 666 is my favorite number. And I'm a Satanist? No, I am a kind and gentle man, who has no reason to hurt people. I enjoy my life with my family and friends, while being very proud of what I am. And it's the same for millions of other metalheads. During the concerts where I went, I met a lot of people I didn't know. They are not like politicals imagine or want to make imagine to the others people. Metalheads are not bloodthirsty brutes who want to destroy everything. NO! All metalheads I have met and seen are really nice people, funny, with whom I can speak, and who enjoy every fucking second that goes, in having a good time with their friends, and I do the same.
But that, most of the political and people don't understand, reject us and want to try to ban our music and our way of life. Ourselves, metalheads, we maybe have darkness and the devil as symbols, but we don't want to destroy life. Instead, we celebrate the life and joy of life through our music! They try to make us look like monsters to the eyes of people, but by denigrating our music and those who listen it, politicals reveal what they are: ignorant and intolerant people, unable to accept the differences of life and tastes.

Now for all the enemies of Metal music and who would try to prohibit it and deprive us of our way of life, I have a message for you:

Mathias, the Lordi Rider

Winter is coming \m/ 

I am what I am

Sometimes when I walk in the street, I notice that some people stare at me, and some even seem to be intimidated by my outfit of metalheads. Yet I did nothing scary. And now it even seems that I worry people, all because I have different passions of the standard. Yes, I have a fascination with darkness, weapons, living dead creatures, and death itself. But that's not for that I'm going to start killing people, I know still remain lucid.
I got to meet foreign friends, who also have different passions of the standard, so I feel less alone now. I was rejected and seen as a freak at school, and even today, people still think I'm a monster. Well, in that case, if I had to choose, I'd rather be that than becoming a prisoner of the society. Anyway, I've never seen myself as part of the society, and I don't want. And if it means I'll never find love, well I will live my life alone. It may happen, or not.
I am what I am, and happy to be so.


Mathias, the Lordi Rider
Winter is coming \m/

Stupid Internet Trolls!

One thing that happens more and more frequently and with more and more of trolls (I prefer to call them "big jerks"), criticize and judge people about their tastes, and when my friends are targeted, this is thing I can't let pass.
This is really the kind of things that exasperates me and makes me want to get through my screen to give big slaps to trolls.
So, Internet trolls, stop polluting the internet with your useless comments and judgments and go to buy yourself a life instead of annoy others.
I remain polite and I insult not because I did not want to put me at the level of the trolls, and also because they are not worth the trouble.
You know what, trolls? You like to attack people, huh? Well, come and tell me what you think about me, face to face, but I know you will not, cause you're too coward for that. I live my personal war against internet trolls since several years, I know what it means to be treated like a crazy person or a monster, but believe me, I'll never surrender.
The Killmaster is not afraid of you.


Mathias, the Killmaster \m/

Who said men can not wear pendants?

Today, I decided to talk about something that concerns me a lot these last time and for me, is a complete idiot stereotype and con (I say yes both): the stereotype that men do can not wear pendants.
To start, I don't know who said it, but first: he's or she's an idiot, and second, whether he or she was in front of me, I will slap him (or her) and say: and since when?

The pendants have always been seen as essentially feminine accessories and many men refuse to wear because they say it's for girls. It's completely idiot, yes I repeat. There are many men who wear pendants, with patterns, but it remains pendants. There are even men who wear rings, bracelets or other, and they have no shame. Myself, I have several pendants (one with a metalhead cross, another with a tooth of crocodile ....) and I'm not ashamed to wear them in the street or in front of people.

All that to say, stop with these shitty stereotypes. The most important thing is to feel good as you are, regardless the style you have.


Mathias, the Lordi Rider \m/

A dislike button soon on Facebook? A bad idea!

One of my Canadian friends has speak of something that leaves me perplexed. Apparently, a new feature will soon be scheduled on Facebook: a dislike button. Seriously, WTF, and why?
Already I don't see the usefulness of such a thing, it's ridiculous. And also, I hope this is only a rumor, because if such a button is created, in my opinion, this could create problems, especially in the relationships with friends.
But seriously, who would dare to put a dislike to the publication of one of his friends? We may not like a publication, but then to put a dislike to the eyes of all? No, I refuse to do that. When I don't like something, I don't comment and I move on. I know Facebook is a place to publish and share, but it's also a place to have friends, liked and commented on these things, in the right mood. I don't want to create or have conflicts, and especially not with my friends, I'm not here for that. That is why I am against this button dislike, because it will only bring conflicts in my opinion. And if it is added, I would never use it. For me, absolutely no need of a dislike button.

Mathias, the Lordi Rider \m/

Sexism about fictional female characters

Today I want to talk about this subject: the sexism about the female fictional characters. I am one of the men who have great respect for women and that consider them as the equal of the man, which is totally true.
In the games, movies, or others, women are often depicted as weak, unable to defend himself, and I hate that. I have several fictional loves, but all of them have one thing in common: they are strong women, with a strong spirit, and able to kick ass and kill to defend themselves. If you want to see my fictional loves, there is a special page dedicated to them on my blog (look above to find the link)
And another thing I hate: the guys who see female characters only as sex symbols. No, guys, this is not just a body with breasts. In general, you can easily guess the mentality of these guys, some by seeing the drawings they make and they publish, and which represent the female characters, but with huge breasts or completely nude. I find this completely stupid and uninteresting, and also disrespectful. I make drawings of my fictional loves, but I represents them as they should be: natural (and if you don't believe me, go on my Deviantart page: http://dark-rider28.deviantart.com/)
And then stop to find any pretext to transform women's breasts into weapons (eg, machine gun canons in the breasts of a female robot?) Completely ridiculous, and especially another example of ingrained sexism.
I can see the outer and inner beauty of a woman, but unfortunately many men are not able, and only see women as sex objects. And it's the same with fictional characters. When I fall in love with a fictional character, I like her physical and her face of course, but also her personality and her way of thinking. I love them with my heart and my mind, and not with my dick, as most do unfortunately (Oh and a message for the sexists or pervers who could read this article: your brains are in your head, not under your belt, okay?)



                                                                                                             
                                                                                                Mathias, the Lordi Rider \m/

Fuck the Hecklers on youtube!

Tonight, I still could see that youtube is full of stupid people. A guy that I don't know, insulted me by treating me of noob, and telling me that one of my videos (the video of a concert where I was) is crap because the quality is bad, as he says. This is not the first time I've been insulted for no reason, but this time, I react.
First, I told him: Big moron! I am not a professional cameraman! Of course there are defaults, but the video is audible and that's what counts. And the guy blocked his comment so I can not answer. Besides being an idiot, he's a coward. So I deleted his comment, but if he comes back, I'll make sure that his channel is blocked.
I can not stand those people who believe themselves smarter than others and who allow themselves to give lessons and insulting people. It's a total lack of respect and THEY are the big idiots of the web. If myself or one of my friends is attacked by these guys, I can not stand without react. While those who give lessons, I said, trying to do better before judging, if not, shut your fucking mouth and go fuck yourself.

And finally, here is a message from me for the hecklers on Youtube:

Fuck the haters and the hecklers!

                                                                                Mathias, the Lordi Rider \m/

There' is not only rich people who can be fans!

I am writing this article to talk about something that really disgusts me and for me, is really unfair. When you're really a fan of a character, sometimes we want to buy his figure to have it with you. It's a passion and it's beautiful and touching in a sense to want to have his favorite characters with you. But cons, there is one thing that can block and break some of your dreams: the prices!
I went to see the prices of some figures, and honestly, it's just theft. Some figures cost more than $ 400 (which makes 356 euros). My family is normal and we have enough to live, but we are not rich, there are prices that I can not afford to, because I already think of me and also to my parents.
And in addition, there may be not only that the price is exorbitant, but that's can be a scam, then it is even worse, but it exists unfortunately.
But sellers should remember that there's not only the rich people who can be fans and want to collect action figures or objects. I know that money rules the world and that I could not change something about it, but I give my opinion on the subject and how much it disgusts me to see the prices of some figures, when some can afford to buy them and others no, it disgusts me.
I don't blame rich people, but I blame the system and the companies (yes so do not blame the sellers because most of the time they are in service of a company and do not have a say on prices.)
But despite that I do not let my hopes be break by these prices, I continue to stay as I am and I'll wait however long it takes.


Peace and Rock \m/

Mathias, the Lordi Rider

My Universes: Fictional, but real in my heart

Today I speak of something really important to me because it's my universes, worlds of fiction or living humans but also monsters, ghosts, aliens, robots and all kinds of fantastic creatures. The horror, science fiction, fantasy, paranormal, romance (and also the romance that can exist between two different creatures, such as a human and an alien).
I know some worlds better than others because some have rocked my childhood, and I know others since only a few years or months. In these universes live my greatest heroes, my favorite villains, but especially my fictional loves, which are always in my heart for all my life. They helped me to hold on a few times and they still continue.
All of this may be fictional, but in my heart and my mind, they are real and live through me, because I am above all someone enthusiast who wants to live his passions and his dreams to the fullest. And those who tell you the otherwise are morons. No passion = no dreams = no ambitions = no life. It's that simple.
In my world, my universes are real. You have the right to not like some, it's your right, but don't forbid me to live in them and to love them. Others have their own world, I have mine, with my universes.
Live your passions. Believe in your dreams. 


My Universes:

                                                                            Peace and Rock \m/

                                                                                     Mathias, the Lordi Rider 

                                      

Being different, the intolerance and the rejection.

Death to the intolerance! Not rejection! If you're a torturer, a hateful or a intolerant, you are not welcome here, leave this page and go fuck yourself! There is no place for intolerance in my world.

For the 100th article published on my blog, I'll talk about very serious things, that concern me personally, and thousands more people around the world. Everyone has the right to have a place in this world,

Being different is to be out of the norm in terms of taste, style, physical or mental. Is it wrong or weird? Of course not. On the contrary, being different makes you someone unique. Why am I different? I think this is partly due to my vivid imagination. I create my own world, my creatures, I made thousands of drawings during my life, I invented hundreds of stories, some were completely crazy, but as I felt inspired, I continued. I have several fictional loves, I already dreamed that I kissed them. I even dreamed that I made a love scene with Daenerys (but true love, not porn!). My fascination for weapons, death, the paranormal and the monsters began very early, when I was about 13 years. I was not different in the physical plan, but moral. I have my way of seeing the world and the things around me, and that many people have never understood. I had a normal and happy childhood, but my schooling has been an endless nightmare. From primary school to high school, I was rejected, misunderstood by the others. They laughed of me because of my tastes, my shyness, my difficulty integrating, my family name .... I was shoved, hit, threatened several times ...... I had a few friends during my schooling, but I do not know where they are now. And at high school, it's became unmanageable! My tastes remained the same, especially for music, and I was not like the others. I experienced bullying that became so unbearable that I dropped everything and I left high school. I have them all told to go fuck themselves, and I left, never to return. It was after that I'm falling in depression. it lasted for months, I was convinced that my difference was going to destroy my life, and I hated everyone. I was full of sadness but also of hate. The outright hate! I even attempted to kill myself, and I almost did it. One night, I waited that my parents and my sister are asleep, and I went down discreetly in the kitchen. I took a knife in the drawer and I wanted to cut my veins. But I have not been able to. I thought about my parents and all my family, the evil I would do them if I did that. I gave up and I've never told my attempt of suicide to my parents. I decided to go see a psychologist, which helped me to get rid of the hatred that consumed me, and a few months later, I retook taste to life.
If you think I invented this story, go fuck yourself! I don't mess with these things!

When I see testimonials from young people who said they wanted to commit suicide because they are martyred, it really makes me angry, because I have experienced the same situation. I saw unfortunately in articles, that some young people like me, who see life differently and have different tastes, that have committed suicide because they were misunderstood or martyred by their classmates. Intolerance and rejection are weapons sometimes worse than a gun or a knife, as they act as a poison or a flame that destroys you from the inside gradually, and when you mix intolerance and rejection, we get a very dangerous mixture as destructive a bomb. I can not stand the intolerance and lack of respect.
If like me, you are different, know that you are not alone. I support you, I respect your choices and tastes. Respect me and I will respect you. If you want to be my friend, no problem. But if you're an asshole of intolerant, hater or torturer, get out of here and go to hell!

No Intolerance! No Reject! No Bullies! Be proud to be like you are! If I can be, You too!




                                                                                                                           Mathias, the Lordi Rider

The Mosh Pits in the Metal world

ATTENTION: In this article, I am not criticizing the metal or the metalheads. I only criticizes the Mosh Pit.

I started listening to rock music in 2008, but I became a true metalhead only in 2009. In short, I'm a metalhead, in the heart, blood, and soul, I like almost all forms of metal and rock, I am very curious and always eager to discover new bands, but if there is one thing I do not understand and I can not stand, because I have experienced personally, it is the movements of crowds during the concerts, called Mosh Pits.

The concept is this one: a maximum of fans form a hollow circle in the middle of the crowd and begins to shake violently in all directions. When you see it from a distance, one could almost believe a giant brawl. I am quite willing to set the mood in a concert, but here it goes a little too far, right? Hey, it's a concert, not a battle, so calm down a little.

Uh....It's a concert, or a war? 

To begin, I finds this concept completely stupid because it's very dangerous. I have heard of Mosh Pits which degenerated. People have been injured, there's even been deaths during Mosh Pits. Can you imagine? This is terrible! People had come to a concert to have a good time, and are died all because morons (probably drunk or drugged), decided to start a mosh pit that ultimately turned wrong.  When I see this kind of disasters, it makes me angry, and it saddens me greatly, at first for people who suffer the consequences, but also because it gives a bad image of the metalheads. It is not surprising that with that kind of crowd movement, some people say that the metalheads are violent people.

And another reason is that ..... What is utility of the mosh pit, seriously? When I go to a concert, it's to enjoy the music and the show, but not to be shaken in all directions and feel like a pin in a bowling game.

I already been trapped in a mosh pit. It was during the giant concert with Motörhead, Airbourne and Tarja, last year. During Airbourne, fans started a mosh pit, and I was right next door. Fortunately I was able to get out of the mosh pit quickly without hurting myself, but I was shaken several times, which is not nice at all, and a man completely drunk is became violent, told me that he wanted to fight and started threatening to hit me (luckily, his friends intervened, they apologized).

In short, to say, I do not understand the Mosh Pit, I do not see the utility, I can not stand that. This is my opinion, each at his own.

                                                                 Mathias, the Lordi Rider