Who I Am?


I'm Mathias Poupinais, the Killmaster. I was born in 1993 in the town of Nogent le Rotrou, in France. I'm a rather shy man, but i like to talk with people and sympathize with them.
Since forever, I have a passion: the monsters and the paranormal. I've always felt close to this world, perhaps even more than the world of the living.
The monsters have really changed my life, in movies, books, cartoons, toys and even music.
Of course, the way I dress and my rather specific tastes, do not necessarily have been liked by the others.
Since always, I have different tastes of the standard, at least that's what most people say about me, but I am proud to be who I am. I have not had a really easy schooling, relational side. I had some friends that's true, but in all classes where I was, I was the scapegoat, the outcast. They laughed of my shyness, my family name, my physical and my tastes. From primary to high school, I was insulted, rejected, hit, and even threatened ..... And one day in high school, I experienced bullying that became worse and worse, and I fell, I left the high school, by screaming them to go all fuck themselves. I'm falling into nervous breakdown soon after, convinced that nobody loved me and that my life was screwed up before even starting. I wanted to die. I almost committed suicide one night, but I gave up, thinking about my parents and my sister, and to the harm I would do to them if I did that. So I saw a psychologist, which helped me to free myself of my anger that was in me. Then, I took refuge in what I loved most: fantasy, horror, science fiction, metal music, drawing...... I am also fascinated by the paranormal, ghosts, demons, death, darkness, and sharp weapons, and I don't care what people think of that about me. Metal music has always been a part of my life, it became my lifestyle, and my favorite band of all time is Motörhead. Besides, my look is inspired by that of the leader of Motörhead, Lemmy Kilmister, who was an idol for me but more, also a spiritual father and guide, although unfortunately I never met him, and this will remain one of my great regrets for the rest of my life, although I already consider myself fortunate to have seen him twice in concert.
I met some foreign friends on Facebook, who have the same passions as me, I have new French friends too, I have my family, which I love more than anything world.
I play bass and drums, I have several idols. like for exemple the singer and bassist Lemmy Kilmister, and the actress Emilia Clarke, I'm a big fan of The Witcher, Dead Space, Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, Bioshock, and many many more.... I have several fictional loves too. I play video games, I go to the cinema, I go out with my friends, I go on the internet .... Anyway, I'm still alive, and happy to be. And I wish to find the wife of my life, a day.... I'm creating my own music, a mix of Rock and Electro, and I'm writing my first official novel.
But my experience made me want to help people like me, intimidated, because these intimidations at school may lead to suicide, and sadly, some have not had any luck.
So I pass this message: To all haters and those who love to bully the others: go fuck yourself, you're not welcome here, get out of my sight! There is no place for you here.
And for my friends and good people, be welcome ...... I am the Killmaster, and this is my world. Be as you are!



Fire and Blood \m/

Mathias, the Killmaster


4 commentaires:

  1. Love the site. Your images are inspiring. Well done!

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  2. It is lovely that you are so open and honest, freely expressing yourself.

    Taking control of what was once out of control for you is very empowering. I'm happy to hear you are in a much better spirtual place/realm. :) (Hugs)

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    1. Thank you :3 (Hugs too)
      Yeah, freedom expression and being open-minded are really important things for me.

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