Matt Thargar: My Star Wars Alter-Ego

Who has not yet imagined being a jedi or live in the SW universe for real? Being a fan since childhood, I imagined myself how I would be in Star Wars, and here's the description of my Alter Ego and his story.

Matt Thargar was born on the planet Mandalore. He is the son of Daenia Thargar, a rich woman with long silver hair, senator and a close friend of the Duchess Satine. Daenia was known to be a woman with a great mind and fair, and had more and more influence in the Senate. Matt has never known his father, this one having died before his birth. All he knows is that his father was a great captain aboard a military ship of Mandalore. Matt spent his childhood on Mandalore, but the politician life doesn't interested him. During his childhood, he does not really have many friends and spent most of his time in his bedroom. This isolation made him dark, almost unsociable, which worried Daenia.

But Daenia having more and more influence, she became a target, and one day, terrorists named Death Watchs, were paid by Count Dooku to kill her. One day, as she climbed aboard her personal shuttle to go to a meeting, Daenia was killed in the explosion of a bomb hidden in the engine of the shuttle. Mathias saw everything that happened, from the balcony of his room.

Matt had time to go in the street to take out the body of his mother from the rubble of the shuttle, but it was too late, Daenia was already dead. Taking his mother in his arms, Matt had the broken heart and the pain awoke something in him that he always had, but he did not know: the power of the Force. Invaded by sadness and anger, Matt unleashed his gift unintentionally, and debris from the shuttle were thrown into the air, like magic. Destroyed and terrorized by what he had done, Matt flees. Duchess Satine, a great friend of his mother, was very saddened by the death of Daenia, and managed to find Matt and offered him her help. But blinded by sadness and anger, Matt refused and fled again. During 3 years, he wandered like a hermit in the streets of the city, feeding himself as he could and being forced to steal to survive. He attended the gangs, and was haunted all this time by the death of his mother, which made him even more aggressive and dark. But one day, while he fighted against three men in an alley, he was spotted by the Jedi Master Plo Koon, who came with Obi Wan kenobi, to investigate a spy case involving the Duchess Satine. Plo Koon felt great anger in Mathias, but also a great link with the Force, with an energy as he had never felt before. Having calmed the young man and a long discussion, Plo Koon managed to convince Matt to come to the Jedi Temple on Coruscant, and Matt was agreed, considering now he was nothing on Mandalore.

Thus Matt came to the temple and was presented by Plo Koon to the Jedi Council. All felt the force in him, especially Master Yoda, who was quite surprised to feel such anger in one person. But Mace Windu feared that this anger and the pain were too dangerous to form him in the Jedi training, however, Plo Koon was confident of being able to help Matt to channel his hatred and make him become a great Jedi. The majority of the council members have accepted to let a chance to Matt, but only Mace Windu was reluctant to that.

Plo Koon became the master of Matt and for several years, Matt followed the advices of his master and progressed very quickly, especially at the lightsaber combats. Among his group, Matt was the first to found his crystal, at the bottom of an ice tunnel, where he had to, in the darkness, facing a creature he was unable to identify, and he managed to throw the creature into a crevasse by using the Force. All he could describe of this creature is that it was "humanoid, with long white hair and bright red eyes, emitted an intense cold from her body and whose the roar sounded like the crackling of the ice." Although he was the first to find his crystal, Matt was the last to exit the cave, just few seconds before the frozen door closed completely.
Matt made his lightsaber (is crystal being blue), as he imagined, in a metal of Mandalore, and he adorned the tip with a small silver dragon head, as the dragon has always been the symbol of his mother. But his crystal was so powerful that his lightsaber needed a crossguard to not explode, and now form a blue lightsaber with a laser crossguard, Matt being among the very rare Jedi of the history to have get a lightsaber model like this. Matt would not wear the traditional dress of jedi and only wears black clothes with a large black hooded cloak, for he said that black has always been his color and he felt good like this. Plo Koon had no objection, but many council members were not certain of this choice. Matt also leaves his long hair and his goatee on his chin. Matt had become one of the strongest padawans in the lightsaber combats, but he scared the others because of his offensive techniques too and its aggressiveness in combat, Plo Koon remarked that from the start. Matt found it hard to channel his anger and Plo Koon felt at several times the young man's desire to hurt, especially to those who had killed his mother. Plo Koon taught the ways of the force to the young man, making him meditate and saying to him that revenge is not the way of the Jedi. Despite his choleric temperament and lonely, Matt was a very good padawan. He was allowed to leave with his master for a first mission, on his home planet Mandalore. Together, Plo Koon and Matt stopped an espionage group who attempted to infiltrate the planet defense networks to sell them to the separatists. Among the group of spies, Matt met a man, who was the one who under the orders of Dooku, had put the bomb in the shuttle of Dania, to kill her. Carried away by his anger, Matt killed the man by piercing him with his lightsaber, before Plo Koon have time to intervene. Later, Plo Koon came to see Matt, who sat in silence, thinking. When he asked him if he felt good, Matt replied with this phrase "better than ever." in a tone quite dark and with a smile at the corner of the mouth. After the mission, Duchess Satine wanted to thank the Jedi, and recognized Matt even though he grew up. However, after what Matt did, Plo Koon had no choice to make him pass in front of the council. Matt was severely reprimanded for killing a man "by revenge." When Yoda asked to Matt if he wanted to say a word, Matt did not answer, but one thing, very calmly: "What's done is done, and I have no regrets." Faced with these words, the council took the decision to punish Matt, and for five months, the young Matt remained in the protection of the archives and far away of the fights. It's during these five months that he met for the first time Ashoka Tano, a young female togruta, also punished and forced to protect the archives 'cause she disobeyed to her master, Anakin Skywalker. Day by day, Matt and Ahsoka became more and more friends, and a frendship was born.
One of the greatest feats of Matt was on a mission to Naboo, where Matt managed to destroy 15 battle droids with the force, and throw them all on the ground to destroy them. And during another mission, on Coruscant, he managed to capture the bounty hunter Cad Bane, and sent him to prison.
But Matt's training was not without fault because a day, taken by a violent fit of anger, he threatened Mace Windu, with his lightsaber. Plo Koon managed to calm his padawan, but this act only reinforced the distrust of Windu to the young man. 

During his formative years, Matt often went to see Master Yoda, to confide about his anger and feelings about his past, and Yoda did what he could to help the young man to find his way. Matt met the other jedi of the temple, regarded Plo Koon as a father, and Master Yoda as a mentor. He became friends with two other jedi in particular: Aayla Secura, a female Twi'lek Jedi Knight, and he became good friend with another Padawan: Emi Takori, a young human woman. Among all the Padawans, Matt is a solitary, spending most of his time alone. Plo Koon said once to the council "I have never seen a novice with such anger in him, but without being affect by the dark side."

And finally, Matt, like Ahsoka and Emi, received the rank of Jedi Knight, which strengthened the confidence of the young man and lessened his anger. Soon, he spent more and more time with Ahsoka, and fell in love with her, and the feeling seemed to be mutual. But the law of the Jedi forbade any love relationship, and they knew it. Mutually, they told their past, their memories .... Ahsoka was very sorry about Matt's past, but at the same time, it strengthened her sympathy to him and she became even closer to Matt. And finally, one day, Matt took Ahsoka on Mandalore, in a large residence located in the countryside. This second home belonged to Daenia, and Matt was therefore the heir. While they were on the balcony to watch the sunset, Matt took his courage and confessed his sincere feelings for Ahsoka, and she told him she loved him too. Ahsoka and Matt kissed for the first time. This kiss strengthened their love even more, and so they began a secret relationship, but very sincere. Over the months, Matt and Ahsoka continued their relationship. Several times a week, Ahsoka joined Matt in his apartment, or vice versa, and they spent the night together. One night, the couple made love for the first time, but Ahsoka did not get pregnant, which in a sense reassured the couple, who did not want children, at least not yet, not to rush things and risk that their relationship being discovered.

Matt and Ahsoka continue since their love relationship without revealing it to anyone, and now the biggest secret desire of the couple is to marry and have children.

May the Force be with you \m/

Mathias, the Killmaster \m/